6 Things I Wish I Knew Before I Got Married

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The doors swung open. There she was, beautiful and confident and everything I’d ever dreamed. This was it. A few long minutes stood between me and Tiffani and marriage.

I’m ready for this. And I was. As much as I could be, considering I knew nothing about marriage. I’d never tried it, after all. Watched a few movies. Read a book or two.

But I had no idea. Who does?

Marriage is a fearless act of faith drenched in hopeless naivety. If God granted us access to the future, if we could see it all in the beginning – all the failed promises, all the struggles of daily living in the same home with one person, all the frustration and pain-induced tears – would anyone exchange vows? I’m not sure.

Sure, there are good times. Laughter, lots of it. Intimacy. Companionship.

Thankfully, though, God doesn’t open Pandora’s box.

If I’m honest, a post like this one is almost futile. Marriage, much like parenting and riding a bike, is learning as you go. You will make mistakes, skin a knee or worse. Maybe you know someone who got the bike riding thing on his first try. I don’t. If such a person even exists, he doesn’t have any friends. I’m sure of it.

Marriage is not about avoiding mistakes. It’s about learning from them. And posts like this one become valuable once you get on the bike and particularly after you fall.

Why, then, write to people on this side of their wedding day? Because you will fall down. Reality will inevitably crush your expectations and what you thought about marriage. In those moments, I pray you remember what you’re about to read. It might help you to get up and keep moving forward, to fight for your relationship, to extend grace, to ask forgiveness.

So, here we go. Here are 6 things I wish I knew before I got married.

1. The first year (or two) is impossibly hard.

You’re married the day you exchange vows. But you will spend the rest of your life becoming one.

And that’s what marriage is, two people becoming one. A divine mystery.

Those first weeks and months, you will feel anything but one. Mark my words. Excruciating best describes my first year of marriage. I questioned so much. Who is this woman I agreed to marry? Why do we argue every day? Is there an escape clause?

If – no, when – you experience something similar, don’t take it as an indictment on you, your spouse, or your relationship. It means you’re married.

You’re learning how to become one. You’re learning how to be naked with another person. Not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually as well. You’re learning that the person you married isn’t as perfect as you once thought. You’re learning to exchange expectations for reality. You’re learning to accept his flaws, to forgive him when he hurts you. You’re learning intimacy. The costs are high. But so are the rewards.

Don’t give up. Put in the work. You will reap the benefits in the years to come.

2. Sex will not fix your problems.

I was addicted to porn long before Tiffani and I exchanged I dos. No worries, though. Marriage would cure my addiction. Why would anyone watch porn when they could have sex whenever they want?

Me, apparently.

Our culture paints an impossibly perfect picture of sex. It’s the answer to all your problems. Do your marriage a favor; throw that picture in the wastebasket.

Sex won’t fix your addiction; only hard work, faith, and most likely a counselor can do that. Sex won’t fix your marital problems, either. Excessive, unhealthy fighting, growing bitterness and resentment. Sex masks those problems. It doesn’t fix them.

Sex isn’t bad. Far from it. But when you expect sex to solve your life’s problems, you will always find it falls short. Over time, ironically, you will come to resent sex too.

3. Forgiveness is not saying “I’m sorry.” It’s letting go, from the heart.

Forgiveness is NOT saying “I forgive you.” It’s more than words. Forgiveness is letting go, from the heart.

This has been a learned skill for me. For many years, I would accept Tiffani’s apology. My words were more bark than bite, though. I didn’t mean them. This became obvious the next time she did something I didn’t like. I would lash out, passive-aggressively about a particular thing that nothing to do with the thing she apologized for.

Friends, this is called victimization. It’s holding someone’s past against them, a grab for power and control, and it will destroy your marriage.

You must learn to forgive from the heart, to let go. This will feel like losing or weakness. It’s neither. Forgiveness is strength; it builds your muscles so you can fight against the evil forces that want to destroy your marriage.

4. The only way to intimacy is THROUGH conflict.

You will argue. You will get frustrated, upset even. For some reason, we’ve been taught that conflict is unhealthy. The opposite is true. The only way to intimacy is THROUGH conflict. You can’t experience true intimacy by going around conflict or pretending it doesn’t exist.

Conflict is not dysfunction.

You might need to remind yourself of this often, especially early on. The absolute worst thing you can do is remain silent. If you bury frustration and tension, they will resurface as bitterness and resentment. Be honest and transparent, even if it means more conflict in the short-term. You’re paving the way for a strong marriage down the road.

5. You can’t change or fix your spouse.

Say this to yourself, “I cannot change my spouse.” Write it on your heart.

Not long after you tie the knot, you begin noticing deficiencies in your spouse, things you didn’t see before you were married. That’s because he’s human. He’s a perfectionist. He’s hyper-focused on being right (All. The. Time). He’s selfish sexually (or emotionally).

I need to fix this, you will think, and just like that, your spouse now becomes personal salvation project.

Don’t do this. Please.

You can’t fix people. You can only love them. You cannot love your spouse and try to change them at the same time.

So, Frank, I should just accept this behavior? That seems wrong.

No, you should get to work on yourself. It’s the only way. You become more loving. You become more forgiving. You change your perspective. Don’t enable. Be honest about your frustrations and your spouse’s behavior. But don’t resort to fixing.

Continue to love. Be patient. This sounds silly and counter-intuitive and even dangerous. I get that. Just trust me, though.

6. Selflessness and sacrifice are the foundations of a healthy marriage.

In the earliest days of marriage, when Tiffani wasn’t meeting my needs, I doubled down on the selfish behavior. I intentionally avoided things I know she wanted me to do. Simple stuff like take out the trash or unload the dishwasher. Stuff I knew would upset her, though. The quality of your marriage hinges on the little things.

Over the years, I’ve learned that serving Tiffani changes my attitude and perspective about her and our marriage. It seems to wash my selfishness away, even if temporary.

This sounds counter-intuitive, but whenever you feel your needs aren’t being met, try serving your spouse. Ask yourself, “What would he want right now? How can I help him, make his life easier, today?” Double-down on your serving. Try it. See if something changes.

Marriage is beautiful. But it’s not easy.

Remember, God is for you and your marriage. Trust him. Find a Christian community. Lean on them. Find older couples. Learn from them. Make friends with other married folks. Let them hold you accountable.

Grace and peace, friends.

Frank is lead writer and editor for the blog at Bayside church. He is also a husband, father and Jesus-follower. Occasionally he plays golf. Often he drinks coffee.

4 Comments

  1. I was just having this conversation with a buddy of mine. I wish that I wasn’t so naive in thinking that “hard times will never happen to us”. My wife and I were both previously married, in our much younger days, and while we each went through tough times when our marriages ended, we learned a lot from our experiences. We’ve learned that it’s ok to ask for help and it’s important to find effective ways of relating to one another. We’re using Diana Shulman’s site, http://www.dianashulman.com/, and her book The ABCs of LOVE, and I’d recommend these resources to every couple. You are absolutely right, marriage is beautiful, but it’s not easy; it takes A LOT of work.

    • Derrick, great comment. In particular, I like what you said about asking for help and finding effective ways to relate to one another. Good stuff!

  2. Thank you for your insight and advice. I am approaching my 2 year anniversary. I am grateful to have a husband who is always willing to work things out with me but marriage has been more challenging than I thought it would be for sure.
    One of our resources that helped us is the book “The Five Love Languages” by Gary Chapman. It helped me with family relationships and friendships too. You can get the book anywhere, but the online quiz to determine your love language is here. http://www.5lovelanguages.com/

    • Candace, the Five Love Languages is a timeless resource! Thanks for sharing!

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